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Wow its been awhile since i’ve been able to update this blog. I have so much going on right now I dont even know where to begin. First of all my internet is messing up, Tried different DSL modem, all new connections, phone lines, But still the same problem. The adsl light keeps flashing but wont go solid so then I cant get online. Seems to only let me on at night which totally sucks. If anyone has any idea’s please let me know.

For the last month my anxiety/ panic attacks have been really bad, I dont know why and I cant explain it. But it is to the point I’m not sleeping more than a couple hours a nite, I have constant chest pains, my heart feels like its racing all the time. I’m afaid to go to sleep because i’m afraid i wont wake up. My husband has worked nights for many years and it has never bothered me, now out of the blue i’m afraid to be alone, every nite when he leaves for work I have a panic attack.

I cant go on like this, It is ruining my life and affecting the ones I love. I have called and made a doctors appointment and I go Friday the 29th. Hopefully they can help me I dont have insurance so I cant keep going back and forth or to other doctors so this is going to be really hard. They want $85 just for the office visit, now if I need perscriptions its going to cost an arm and a leg but I have no choice I need help.

Kyle from Race4Offers still hasnt paid me for working for him back in december. I keep emailing him but I think he’s avoiding my emails. I’m going to wait another couple weeks and if He doesnt pay me I will just open my big mouth about what I know. I didnt want it to come to this but I’m not one to take being screwed over very easily.

Last night my husband fell asleep with a heating pad and he has burns and blisters on him. I wish i would of known it was on because I would of made sure it was on low or even shut it off before i went to sleep. I feel really bad but I didnt even know it was on. I will try to update everyone soon on how things are going. Depending on my internet.

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