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Wow its been awhile since i’ve been able to update this blog. I have so much going on right now I dont even know where to begin. First of all my internet is messing up, Tried different DSL modem, all new connections, phone lines, But still the same problem. The adsl light keeps flashing but wont go solid so then I cant get online. Seems to only let me on at night which totally sucks. If anyone has any idea’s please let me know.

For the last month my anxiety/ panic attacks have been really bad, I dont know why and I cant explain it. But it is to the point I’m not sleeping more than a couple hours a nite, I have constant chest pains, my heart feels like its racing all the time. I’m afaid to go to sleep because i’m afraid i wont wake up. My husband has worked nights for many years and it has never bothered me, now out of the blue i’m afraid to be alone, every nite when he leaves for work I have a panic attack.

I cant go on like this, It is ruining my life and affecting the ones I love. I have called and made a doctors appointment and I go Friday the 29th. Hopefully they can help me I dont have insurance so I cant keep going back and forth or to other doctors so this is going to be really hard. They want $85 just for the office visit, now if I need perscriptions its going to cost an arm and a leg but I have no choice I need help.

Kyle from Race4Offers still hasnt paid me for working for him back in december. I keep emailing him but I think he’s avoiding my emails. I’m going to wait another couple weeks and if He doesnt pay me I will just open my big mouth about what I know. I didnt want it to come to this but I’m not one to take being screwed over very easily.

Last night my husband fell asleep with a heating pad and he has burns and blisters on him. I wish i would of known it was on because I would of made sure it was on low or even shut it off before i went to sleep. I feel really bad but I didnt even know it was on. I will try to update everyone soon on how things are going. Depending on my internet.

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First I would like to announce that there was no winner of the prize drawing, I had a couple people join under me but never confirmed their account are did not complete an offer to become active. I may carry this out throughout the month of December.

Today was not a good day for me, we have a bad winter storm coming so I had to rush to the store to pick up enough food to get us threw the next couple days. While in the parking lot I had another anxiety/panic attack. My husband and I had to sit in the truck for 15 minutes before I was able to go in. I’ve been really stressed out lately worrying about christmas, we only have 1 more check coming and I have yet to get the kids anything for christmas because everything goes toward our bills. I believe this is what set off my attack today. I just wish i had insurance so that I could start getting treatment for this condition.

Here’s a little information about anxiety and panic disorders.

Generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) is much more than the normal anxiety people experience day to day. Chronic and exaggerated worry and tension characterize it, even though nothing seems to provoke it. A person suffering from GAD always anticipates disaster and often worries too much about health, money, family, or work.

People who suffer from GAD can’t seem to shake their sense of dread and worry, even if they appear to be intellectually aware that their anxiety is more intense than the situation warrants. People with GAD also seem unable to relax. They often have trouble falling or staying asleep, and their worries are frequently accompanied by physical symptoms like muscle tension and nausea. They tend to feel tired, have trouble concentrating, and sometimes suffer depression, too.

Usually a person who suffers from GAD is able to carry on with normal activities. He or she can function in social settings, or on the job, and does not usually have to avoid certain situations as a result of the disorder. However, severe GAD can be very debilitating and it can make daily life difficult, as well as having a negative impact on the sufferer’s relationships with friends and family.

People with panic disorder have feelings of terror that strike suddenly and repeatedly with no warning. The person having a panic attack experiences physical symptoms, like a pounding heart, weakness and a smothering sensation. The sufferer may genuinely believe that he or she is having a heart attack or stroke, or is on the verge of death. The sufferer cannot predict when an attack will occur, and many develop intense anxiety between episodes, worrying when and where the next one will strike. In between times there is a persistent, lingering worry that another attack could come any minute.

Most panic attacks last for just a few minutes, but they can last longer. In rare cases, they may last an hour or more.

Panic disorder can strike one in every 10 Americans over their lifetime. It can appear at any age, but most often it begins in young adults, and affects twice as many women as men. Not everyone who experiences panic attacks will develop panic disorder. This much more serious condition is often accompanied by other conditions such as depression or alcoholism, and may give rise to phobias, which can develop in places or situations where panic attacks have occurred. For example, if a panic attack strikes while the sufferer is out shopping, he or she may develop a fear of stores, and start avoiding them.

Some people’s lives become greatly restricted as they start to avoid any situation where they fear a panic attack may occur. When people’s lives become so affected by the disorder that they are afraid to leave their homes, the condition is called agoraphobia. This is a fear of public or open places.

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